In the last several months, I've had some profound changes manifest into reality. These were the most transformational moments of my life. I started off the year like most people with New Year resolutions, making a decision to do or not do something. What changed was I took these resolutions and affirmed that they had already happened.
Since January, I have traveled to four different countries (two with my one-year-old daughter), completed a year of my masters program, started a new job, brought a new car, put a down payment on a brand new apartment, and obtained legal custody of my child. I'm not sharing these things for ego purposes. Last year, I would have never imagined these things would have been possible. My reality was figuring out how to buy diapers and where the money was coming from.
In 2014, I spent half the year fighting. Fighting for love, fighting for family, fighting to be heard, fighting to make a difference, and fighting myself. I was scattered and depleted. Peace of my mind was all I wanted, and I needed a relief. I stopped fighting. I began to write down what I wanted; there had to be more to life than unhappiness. If you follow my journey, you know that I am a firm believer in manifesting the life that you want, and that's exactly what I did.
I remember it clearly. It was August of 2014 when I started to create the life I wanted. I wrote everything down. I knew it would take some time before I saw any real change but I claimed 2015 as a power year. I was tired of asking for permission to be heard. I was ready to get radical. My actions needed to be extreme to shift me out of this funk, and so they were. I decided to think big without limitations of how change would happen. Once you ask the Universe "how," you are sending a signal that you already doubt that it is possible. For instance, I knew I needed a car. In April 2014, a reckless driver totaled my vehicle with my mother and daughter, and myself inside, and I got left with nothing. I was grateful we were all okay, however repurchasing a new car seemed like such an expense. So what did I do? I wrote down I wanted a sedan that was roomy and spacious. A few weeks ago it happened. I kept the faith. The same goes for my new place. I visualized a two-bedroom spacious apartment with lots of natural lighting, it happened. This week, I embark on a new journey of living alone and sharing a new experience with my child. It will be the first time I have a place to call home since 2012; I've been in transition for a very long time.
None of this could have been possible without belief in myself, and the belief that I could have what I want by just asking for it. Of course, I do not credit all of this to just writing my thoughts out, but I would be lying if I said the law of attraction was a fluke. I asked; I received. This transformation has allowed me to receive so much support from people in and outside my network, and for that I am grateful. Motivational speaker, Lisa Nichols, asked a really poignant question: Are You Willing? At the beginning of this year I knew I was willing to do the work to create the change. I was willing to get uncomfortable. I was willing to take a chance on myself. Sometimes, you have to be willing to stand alone in order to create the life you deserve. You are more than worth it. So as always, thank you Universe for providing me with the basic necessities that for so long I’ve prayed for. Thank you for giving me the strength to be a lioness when it comes to the well being of my child. Thank you for the clarity and insight gained so far. I look forward to ending this year in a really big way, but for now I remain in the present, as I am, willing and ready to create.